a different kind of STORY!

waduuuppp! :))

2012-02-07T04:42:00.000-08:00

so guess what? I'm bored and I think this is the first longest time I've been using the net this 2012 that I thought of blogging.:)

I actually miss writing stories and blogging. I remember I did write some stories with no endings that's my weakness thinking of a good ending or maybe the I really don't know how to end it. Anyway...

I'm taking my thesis course and it feels like I'm about to end college soon. I'm both excited and scared with the thought of it. Me going to the next level..Wew, WORKING! I think life will get tougher and I should get stronger.

I'm getting bored with my life I want to do something new...........
maybe I'll try to get sporty? hmmmm.
or adventures...
or have a part time job?

I don't know I just something new that will make me busy in a happy way. :D

it's been a while.

2011-09-08T05:26:00.000-07:00

it's been a while since i posted in this blog. there's a lot that has been happening in my life... random stuffs!
-school.
-family.
-friends.
-BREW.
-lovelife.
-others.
hahaha there are stories in each.

SCHOOL
- I'm already in my third year and i feel like my social life is not getting any better. guess, school is always about academics for me. Not that I'm becoming a grade conscious again. Actually i'm not although, I wanted to get some good grades but laziness gets in my way. I shouldn't be like this anymore. Each term I keep saying that I'll be more productive but I'm not. I should be thinking of my future by now. But I'm not really seeing a clear picture yet!

FAMILY
-Not so much, Our new house is already done. We now live up our grandma's residence. We just transferred I guess end of April?! I already have my own room for a while because nowadays I'm sharing it with my sister. One sad event was when our dearest Grandpa passed away. It was so sudden that we didn't have the chance to say goodbye. It was one midnight in May. We've been through the wake and the burial. Of course, it was a first for our family. Sadly, our dearest grandpa that used to stay in the kitchen sometimes just calling for help or for a conversation is now with the Lord. I guess he's more peaceful in there. I guess that's it.

FRIENDS
-As always, I'm not that good in socializing. So i stick with the one's i already have. Thankful, that we're still in touch with each other. Although, we have our own busy days. We find time to meet once in a while?! I know I'm kinda missing some gatherings but i know they won't love me any less. There are some friend of mine that i guess we're starting to drift apart. but i hope not. As I always say I'm not good in socializing so I'm not used to going and looking for everyone else. I could stay in one place alone for a long time.. EMO? not so, just an introvert. Silence is peaceful. But not all the time it's good. So once in a while, I get out of my shell.

BREW
-yess! my two beautiful cousins. hahaha :D we are all :) and we're kinda expanding? we have our two little cousins and a friend of brew karen, brew april :) we're growing up! yes we are. Although, are family still treat us like children we are already grown-ups. Next year, brew ysha will also turn 18.. so guess what.. LEGAL?! reaally now? I don't think so. BECAUSE our FAMILY is so STRICT! and we have to accept that fact! although, we can have some BONDING. one was celebrating ysha's birthday and the other is celebrating ysha's broken heart. kidding, but it was kinda like that.... anyway, i guess the next will be my celebration but still my money wasn't given yet. I hope soon! :) I Love this two.. we are starting to talk about grown-up stuffs. like relationships and all... more to come..

LOVELIFE
-GUESS WHAT? Okay, I'm no longer a NBSB! I graduated last June 14... yeah! I know right. haha like I'm crazy talking to nobody really..yes. but I'm happy I have this someone who's being always there for me and loving me endlessly?. Although, seems perfect but not really we have also gone through some downfalls. I hope he'll be as loyal and faithful as I think. That's the most important thing for me.. and the rest will be a bonus. I'm crazy jealous as always, and I hope he'll handle that till the end. I know myself as a soloist, sometimes I still look for that but then I got him beside me everywhere and anywhere I go to. not that I don't like that. We try to make lots of good memories. :) what can I say more? I'm just Happy and In Love :)

OTHERS
-lastly, my health! I'm so thinking about it recently. I'm feeling different pain now in my body, sometimes headache, muscle pains and others. Maybe, it's because of the negativity I absorbed during my visit to my ninang who has a cancer. I fear having one and kinda scared of all. Anyway, I guess I'm just stress because I always sleep late. and all school stuff! kinda stressful!

that's it just updating...

amnesia girl. :)

2011-07-27T04:31:00.000-07:00

since we have no classes because of the storm "Juaning" and maybe because of the persistence of the students...kidding!, i just watch the whole day...

i started watching the season 1 of how i met your mother. and i like it :)) and i like barney, i don't know why?! :D then after a while i transferred to watching telenovelas of GMA in the afternoon.. and i got bored and decided to watch a movie. my first choice was "paano na kaya?"...yes! kimerald.. but then i think the CD is broken so i have to choose another movie.. i saw "my amnesia girl but we just watch it recently but still i ended up watching it again.

i still get the kilig thing in this movie, it still makes me smile. and my favorite parts are :

1st is the raining moments :) i don't know i feel like it's so sweet and cute :)

then the surprise birthday party, this one i wanted to experience :) i hope someone could be sweet enough to do this kind of surprise :)

and lastly, the post its :D that was like woaaah! enough said hahaha :)))

there.. i hope there will still be no classes for tomorrow :)

ibablog ko yan! hahaha :))) SURPRISE!

2011-06-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

*** a special post

this happened very long long time ago :) way back January 10, 2011,.. i told you it was long time ago :p anyway just kidding,, let's pretend that today is January 10,2011 and today is Monday...so here it goes :)

Yesterday, we had a small gathering in my grandma's house... my cousin Ysha was there and I thought this is a chance to spy on something to get information from this someone so I could pursue with a surprise I've been thinking a long time ago. So I ask Ysha to text this person , me knowing that he's favorite is Sansrival cake, if he likes goldilock's or red ribbon's more.. so he replied. Red Ribbon, just as I thought but because I'm not sure I ask. :)) Done with the cake, I don't know what gift to give and i don't have enough time so i decided to make a personal card :) So there, I stayed at grandma's place to make my personal greeting card it was actually designed with the pictures of hiccup of how to train a dragon and mickey :)cause this characters are special....(although, until now i haven't gave it to him...)

12 am, it's his birthday already! :) i stopped first then i called him, to greet him a happy birthday. :) we talked for a while.. then i said goodbye because i have to continue the card. :) i don't know what time that was but after i designed it. I tried to print it but my cousin karen's printer run out of ink. So i thought of just drop by a printing shop tomorrow, so i called him again.. we talked till the sun said goodmorning :) actually, i planned that to make sure that he will wake up late and he will not go anywhere else :) while talking, i heard their manang, joked "baka mamaya may surprise na yan may dalang cake dito" and i thought, oh no,,,he might have an idea about that... anyway i hope not :p

so, i think it's almost 5 or 6...that we ended our conversation and said goodnight. I woke up at 8 because i have a surprise to do... i went home, to prepare myself and all...

i received a lot of challenges along the way but i survived :D

~~FIRST OBSTACLE:~~

then suddenly i felt something wrong.. wew. red days :( and because it is my first day.. here comes dysmenorrhea, and i actually thought should i still go? i know i will be weak.. and yes i still continued.. i just bought dolfenal in jewel's before riding a jeep to mrt.

~~SECOND OBSTACLE:~~

When i reached the mrt, my mother message me to bring the broadband to my father's office and the broadband is at home, i plan of ignoring it but then she called and forced me to bring the broadband so i went back, okay its 10:30,..hoping that he is still sleeping like a log. So, after i delivered the broadband to my father's office i had a ride back to mrt again..

~~THIRD OBSTACLE:~~

i wasn't able to print the card i made because i'm running out of time so i said i'll just bring him cake.. and print the card next time...

~~FOURTH OBSTACLE:~~

so while in the mrt it started to rain.. okay if you know me i don't really bring umbrella i don't know why i just don't want to...and it started to rain hard... okay another obstacle.. when i reach cubao i don't know where or if there is any red ribbon store so i ask the guard and he said there is in farmer's ground floor...okay my abdomen is starting hurt and the dolfenal is just in my pocket... i don't want to drink it so i just endured the pain... when i reached the red ribbon stall they don't have the sansrival and directed me to Red Ribbon main store in shopwise, okay so i went out of farmer's and okay it's still raining.. so i walked through the rain after a while YES! I saw Red Ribbon.

When I entered their store i sat first cause the pain is killing me then after a while the crew asked already so i ordered sansrival cake the after that i went to the shuttle already...wew.

~~FIFTH NOT SO OBSTACLE:~~

at the middle of my journey i asked my blockmate to greet him and check if he's awake. then he confirmed that he is awake. i was like "Oh! no! i hope he's still sleepy and will not stand yet!"

so i'm near already one tricycle ride and i'm there...

at the front of their house i'm thinking where could the doorbell be, i can't find it so i just knocked...good thing manang was going out and opened it and he is still in the room so i kontsaba manang and light up the cake...

i was shaking...

then i entered the room and said happy birthday.. he was so surprise :)) repeatedly saying "grabe ka!"

then we ate and bonded :)) took pictures and everything :)

I am happy that in all that obstacles it was still a success thank you Lord! :)

pain relievers...

2011-01-12T05:16:00.000-08:00

DOLFENAL
---Relief of mild to moderately severe somatic; neuritic pain; headache, migraine, traumatic pain, postpartum pain, post-op pain, dental pain ; in pain ; fever following various inflammatory conditions; dysmenorrhea; menorrhagia accompanied by spasm or hypogastric pain.
---in short it is a pain reliever :)

Just this week, I'm having dysmenorrhea and I need to go somewhere important so I decided to buy dolfenal, in Jewel's Convenient Store and it costs P23.50, in case I can't take the pain anymore. Anyway, enough said...

I just shared this because, after that instance and after I saw the commercial of dolfenal, I thought of something...

"Why isn't there medicine to relieve the pain we get when our hearts get broken?!"

Everyone who starts to LOVE should be ready for the ~~pain~~ behind it. Every time you see the one you love with people of their opposite sex, there is this sudden hurting feeling in your heart as if that person is crushing it. JEALOUSY might be a keyword to this. This kind of pain is only a minor minor pain.

And here is a major major pain, when the one you love ~~cheated on you or broke up with you~~. Isn't that a major major pain that actually breaks your HEART! As if you just wanna die cause you can't take the pain anymore. Its like cancer, which little by little destroy you.

I know most girls would hope that a broken heart is like a menstrual cramp, that you just have to take pain relievers, and all the pain will just go away BUT GUESS WHAT!! It's not...

..Life could be tOo short.

2010-11-26T17:55:00.000-08:00

(last year pa to pero di ko pala napublish.)

April 19 2009.
nagcelebrate kame ng birthday ng grandma ko. and since family gathering..i was expecting na magbabonding na naman kaming tatlong magpipinsan as always kasi minsan nalang kame magkita-kita. pero pagdating ko wala si te karen xa ung panganay saming magpipinsan. and a bad news came. may cancer daw si tita emy..mami ni te karen. kaia nsa ospital nun si te pops. after ng kainan and all.. tumawag si te pops..nagpapasundo.kasi nung araw na un sobrang umuulan ng malakas. kaia nagpapasundo nalang xa. naisipan namen na dumalaw na rin kame kay tita emy. pero bago kami umalis. nagbrownout pa. pero kahit nu pa naman ang nangyari nun. tumuloy pa rin kame. National Kidney and Transplant Institute..dun nakaconfine si tita emy. pagdating namin dun..by two lang ang pwedeng pumasok kasi almost 11 na ata un. at tapos na ang visiting hours. kaia nauna na ung tita ko at ung grandma ko. hindi kami mapakali ni ysha kaia pumunta nalang kame sa emergency room kasi may entrance din dun. pero pagdating dun..pinanghinaan ako ng loob.kaia tinawagan nalang namen si te karen para bumaba..pagbaba nia nandun na din ung iba pa naming kasama. kaia aun pinauna na rin namen si uncle kasi mas may karapatan din xang makita si tita emy..medyo matagal na din kame sa baba..after nun,,bumaba na si ta faye at si uncle bong..kaia kame na ni ysha ang pumanik..hai..sa tagal ng hinintay namen walang pang 1o mins kame dun,,bumaba na ulit kame. aun si tita emy..medyo walang malay..tulog ata xa nun.

after a week..
nagkachat kame ni ysha. tapos napagusapan namen si te karen aun nga..tas naisipan namen bigla na dalawin kaia namen xa. kaso baka sa sobrang KJ ng mga magulang namen hindi matuloy. pero aun thank God ..parehas namen kaming pinayagan. akala ko nung una joke lang.pero it was not.kinabukasan...

April 25, 2009
natuloy nga kami para dalawin si te karen at tita emy..kasama namin si uncle bong, dad ni te karen. dahil humuhiling si te karen ng cake..binilan namen xa. excited na kami ni ysha na makita si te karen kasi mis na din namen xa..pagdating sa ospital. aun,,lumipat na pala sila sa charity ward..nakita namin si tita emy..nakakadilat na naman at tumatawa pa..kaso nga lang hindi pa xa maxadong nakakasalita. pero mukhang mas ok kaysa nung una naming dalaw. medyo nakakainis ung ibang nurse dun kasi ambagal mag-assist at mukhang mataray pa. pero may mga mabait din naman. aun..nakita ko kung panung iritable si tita emy.. nirereklamo na din nya ung kamay nia kasi namamaga na sa dextrose. tapos may panahon pa na bigla xang tumatayo.cguro masakit na ung likod nia. tapos may time na nagugutom na xa..pero kelangan hintayin ung oras ng pagkain nia. binalita samen ni te karen na medyo malala na ung sakit nia. and she need our prayers. almost 12 na and nagpaalam kami sa mga magulang namen na dun nalang matulog. kaia aun..patulog na kami..almost 1am na ng biglang pumanik ung guard at pinauwi kami kasi daw maxado kaming madame..kinda badtrip kasi nagpakahirap kameng magpaalam na dun nalang matulog tas biglang pinauwi kami. hai. aun.

after a week or two maybe.. she already passed away.:((

boredom strikes.!

2010-10-17T00:16:00.000-07:00

"There is a little rhyme

sour like lemon and lime

words unspoken by the mime

can't be bought by a single dime."

last friday, I got bored and came up with this lines and suddenly thought of making a poem.:D

MINE

An overwhelming feeling

you may or not be dealing

it's my heart you're stealing

it's my mind you're filling

your smile that shines

can't be given to concubines

a glance feels like on cloud nine

a friend that's best please be MINE!

and that's it!

THOU SHALL NOT LOVE?

2010-10-14T04:15:00.000-07:00

"Alike bewitched by the charm of looks.But my true LOVE is grown to such excess. I cannot sum up some of my wealth."

"LOVE, resists any single metaphor because it is too powerful to be so easily contained or understood!"

"LOVE is a grand passion, and as such it is blinding; it can overwhelm a person as powerfully and completely as hate can."

----READINGS IN WORLD LITERATURE (Romeo and Juliet)

of legal age.XD first part.":)

2010-08-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

habang nagtatago sa mga guest.:)

(pwede naman magtagalog di ba?! haha.:D)

Just last friday. i turned 18 years old.:)
but i celebrated it last saturday, August 21, 2010 at Great Eastern Hotel.

before that day. im with my broos. wala talaga akong tulog kasama ang aking pinsan na si ysha.. di dahil excited ako or what. pero dahil andame pang dapat gawin! haha.:)) di kasi maxadong prepared.:)) lahat last minute.

natulog ako mga 4am na siguro then mga 7 gising na ulit..kasi magpapractice pa ng sayaw.:)) walang kaen deretso lang sa mga dapat gawin. wow ah! naisip ko. uber haggard ko na. baka magmukhang haggard din ako sa celebration.:))

mga 12pm dumating ang aking mother. deretso pa rin sa practice at mga dapat gawin. pinipilit na kame kumaen. pero di pa din tuloy pa din sa pagsayaw. haha mga 1pm kelangan ko na pumunta sa salon para magpaayos pero xempre bago un kumain na din sa wakas. haha. naramdaman ko gutom ni tummy grabe.:))

umuwi muna kame para makaligo na at deretso na sa salon. hay! aun. sinimulan na ang pagpapaganda sa akin. haha by ate candy ata un not so sure basta C ung naaalala ko ee.:) anyway, ok naman ung pagaayos nia saken. haha. tapos sinimulan na rin kulutin ung buhok ko.. umalis na din pala si mama.. iniwanan ba naman ako?! haha. marami pa kasi xa gagawin.. after an hour, dumating naman ung mga pinsan ko para magpablower. tapos, after umalis din sila so, iwan na naman ako. eto na ung slight problem ilang hours na di pa din kulot ung buhok ko haha.:)) so, todo spray sila ng hairspray tapos dalawang blower na ung gamit! haha.:)) after medyo nakulot din ng konti. haha.

ayan. after sinundo ako ng aking ama.. tapos pagdating sa bahay kain muna ng carbonara nagutom ulit si tummy ee haha.:)) tapos, bihis na. nauna na sila mama sa venue. tapos naiwan kame ni ciai. then after a while sinundo na rin ako nila kuya bry at nila ta faye.

pagdating ko sa venue, naabutan ko ung ibang mga guest. tapos bigla akong hinila ng nanay ko. tago muna daw ako di daw ako pwede magpakita haha.:)) sige! nakita na rin naman ako.

one of my royal dance.:)

18 ROSES:

Mr. Rogie Dela Rosa

Mr. John Patrick Clemente

Mr. Charles Bryan Patacsil

Mr. Juene Cedric Vergel

Mr. John Paolo Reyes

Mr. Daniel Jerome Frago

Mr. Adrian Tansiongco

Mr. John Salvosa

Mr. Ian Maynard Pascual

Mr. David Hongpin Co

Mr. Rommel Lazatin

Mr. Don Aries Mauricio

Mr. Patrick Noel Valle

Mr. Christian Ray Go

Mr. Ydelle John Villete

Mr. James Rommel Silao

Mr. Ferdyn Genesis Ranosa

Mr. Amiel Melosantos

mga 7:30 ata nagstart. everything was a blurr at first! medyo di naging maayos ung first part! nagkahalo-halo na ung royal dance pati ung 18 roses. hay! lalo lang ako kinabahan, di pa nasunod ung cd na binurn ko sayang ang aking effort na pagiisip ng kanta bawat tao di manlang nagamit. hai. anyway. ilan sa mga 18 roses ko ee, napaglabasan ko pa ng kapressuran haha.:)) anyway. nagsisimula na rin ako magenjoy simula nung may nagsabe sakin na ienjoy ko lang di ko na maalala kung sino. hehe,:D natawa ako sa last dance ko kay melo, hehe sobrang stiff nia as in literal na parang naninigas xa super kinakabahan siguro hehe.:))

after nun, naginvocation ang aking pinsan na si mika.. after ee. di pa kasi prepared ung food kaya pinakita muna nila ung slideshow na pinagpuyatan ng aking pinsan na si ysha. medyo nakakatouch ah!. actually super!

after nun kaen modes na.:))) medyo di ako nakakaen wala akong gana?! more like di ko mafeel na gutom ako kaya di tuloy ako nakakaen haha.:)) nung una andun ako sa table ko. kaso loner much kaya lumipat ako sa table nila broo.:D.. after nun picture picture muna! haha sa bawat table.:D tapos,.start na ulit ng program..with the 18 candles.:)

technology..@_@

2010-08-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

we are lucky to have these advanced technology for communications in the present...but come to think of it, is it really an advantage?

CELLPHONES, TELEPHONES, EMAILS, CHATS,...and more..

these are some things that we use in communicating with other people.

a sudden thought, what if these gadgets were not invented?!

Maybe, people are still used to the face to face conversation.

Maybe, people still have the sincerity in their hearts whenever they say something.

Maybe, people are close in reality not only behind these gadgets.

We can say whatever we want in a text message.

Everything is easier to say in a text message.

Asking for apology.

Confessing a feeling.

Sharing a most memorable moment.

but in my opinion all of this is better to share face to face.:)

YOU make me smile like the sun.:D

2010-07-28T05:43:00.000-07:00

the song that I have been searching for a long time...at last I found it!.:D it's entitled SMILE by Uncle Kracker...I like the song a lot and more than that its lyrics fits to what I feel.:)

my 18th birthday is fast approaching but then I have not accomplish anything yet,. although I have a guest list already also the lists of my 18ths..but I don't know if it will be pursued. alhough I want to celebrate it with my friends and love ones.:) hay! im getting confused! hahaha anyway, I'll change the topic already...

hmm, what else should I talk about?! I don't know,...this is just a post of my random thoughts.:D

everytime I see this person, he just make me smile..and whenever he's around it feels so good and i feel so happy... he reminds me of someone. hmm. I wont give clues yet! haha.:) I'll just share again soon.:)

that's it random thoughts! i don't have a lot to share.:D

RANDOM!.:D

2010-06-11T06:33:00.000-07:00

CURRENT NEWS:
Noynoy Aquino was declared as the new President of the Philippines and Jojo Binay as the Vice President. I hope there will be a change and improvement in our country.

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There a lot of things that has been running through my mind this past few days and I don't know why do I keep on thinking about those things, why am I somewhat affected about those?!. One thing's for sure, because I am a part of it! I can't tell the story yet.. Maybe next time. But I just want to lessen the burden that I'm feeling right now..:l

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MEMORABLE EXPERIENCE:
I want to share one memorable experience so far in College, I had my first college overnight! It is actually for our shooting for our CineMapua entry entitled "Alikabok sa Ilalim ng Dagat". We are 16 people who stayed overnight in Ydelle's place. At first, I'm not actually going to stay over night but then I asked my father to let me stay, good thing he permissed me.Some of us did not sleep at all, that is why we are so "bangag". The preparation for this short film was also a fun-filled experience. It was so enjoyable because activities like this are 90% bonding and only 10% work, although we gave our best for this film. hahaha. I would like to thank Yna Villegas, Sam Magtiza, Daniel Arban, Lui Vidal, Ian Pascual Carren Biglang-awa, Karla Rebel, Patrick Espiritu, Ydelle Villete, Earl Alejo, Benj Dy, Christian Go, Patrick Valle, Eugene Llanes and Renniel Francia for one great work and memorable bondings.:) hoping for another one next year!.:D

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EMOTIONS? :
(wrote this in our psychology class.)

"There will be no JEALOUSY, if you don't LOVE a person" --- Mrs. Barquilla, Psychology professor.

...but can you also be jealous if you don't have any right to be jealous? If the person you love does not love you back?!

"LOVE is just a flux, just a flow of enchanting emotion to everything."

i just wanna be happy..:)

2010-01-16T23:42:00.000-08:00

"So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy."

yup! i just wanna be happy.:)

i wanna live my life to the fullest!

i wanna have fun!

i want to love and be loved!

random.

2010-01-13T08:46:00.000-08:00

time flies so fast..:)

it's almost 3 months since i last posted something in here..:)

i have a lot to share. not all good things.:l

it's already my 3rd term in mapua..i don't know if i will still transfer to another program or another school. really at first that was my plan but then there are a lot of things that happened.

i want to attend the same university with my cousin Elysia. but still i don't know which one she'll attend.

it is really hard to make a decision because you will only know its consequences after you have decided.

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i want to focus first with my studies but its so hard to go against temptations.haha..:))

i want to have barkada composed of girls. although im used to being one of the boys since there are only two girls that is left in our block. me and dianne, it is still different being with the girls.. i actually miss my best friend..we haven't seen each other lately and we also don't have communications since i lost my sun sim card.

although lately i'm bonding with some of my high school friends.. i really missed my high school classmates a lot.. its like no time for the arguments and such i just want to bond with them.

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"wag kang miserable. choice mo yan!"

a favorite line of a cousin of mine..hahai. its kinda true.

being EMO and such is our choice. we can put in our minds that we can survive these problems and stop the emo things.haha..

i know it'll be hard. actually, yes it will be but we have to do it for our own good. don't be miserable, because you will be the LOSER! if you'll be one.

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am i strong enough to LOVE!?

i really don't know.

because. really! im WEAK!

and i think i need a partner that will be strong enough for the both of us.

i don't know what is the result of this, but i don't wanna let myself fall for this. i know that being stupid is a part of loving. but i don't want to be the stupidest person on earth!.:))

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it's already 1 in the morning and i want to take a rest so...

CIAO!

AFRAID! emo much?!

2009-10-15T07:16:00.000-07:00

---hai.

ang complicated talaga ng buhay! bat kaya?!hmm.:)

im afraid to love. because im afraid of pain and hurt..

"to love is to suffer. to avoid suffering one must not love. but then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness."

which only means whatever we do we cant avoid sufferings, pain and hurt.

"In every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction."

when we love we will feel such happiness but in return you will also feel such sadness.

we can't prevent things to happen..some things are beyond our control..we should just learn to make things work out..:l

i am scared of falling for you because i know that there is this someone that is still bothering you..and i know how hard it is to forget your feelings for someone..because honestly, im also still in the process of forgeting someone. i keep on telling myself and others that the feeling is already gone. sometimes it is, but there are times that i keep on reminiscing the good memories that we shared and the feeling is kinda going back. and i know that it is also happening to you.

i'm afraid of loving you because i am afraid that when the time comes that Im already so much in love with you, you'll realize that it is her that your heart is beating for. That would break my heart into pieces and i dont want that to happen, i am not ready for that yet.

after 10 years..:)

2009-09-27T05:31:00.001-07:00

hey!

its been a while since i last posted something.:) hmm. our first term in college will already end. it seems so fast that I didn't get the chance to know each of my classmates so well. I hope that they will still be my block mates. tomorrow should be our finals in Algebra and Trigonometry but because of the typhoon "ONDOY" it was delayed. Classes are suspended in colleges in Metro Manila tomorrow.

to be continued....

dapat sa multiply kaso ayaw.haha..iimport nalang..haha

2009-08-07T00:01:00.001-07:00

First blog in my multiply account...so much to share but don’t know where to start... It’s been a long time since I have shared what’s happening in my world for the reason that I still don’t have internet at home. (Sorry for incorrect grammars...Haha..:p)
---our 8th month
Last July 27, while President Arroyo is giving her last SONA, 4aver is celebrating our 8th month of happiness?..haha..whatever it is.. although some wasn’t able to attend, it was still a blast. The first meeting place, as usual, is MCDO barangka. Since Erika went to our house first, we went to MCDO together and when we arrived there, mother (chesca), melo, john, mich, loann, james, rose, mariel were already there..as usual everyone is sharing story about what’s new with their lives, special topics are college life, professors, new crush. They are still the same old almeda. After a while, ferdyn, angelo, aura and adrian arrived. We ate a little then proceed to mother’s house.. my favorite hangout. Our first objective was to watch the SONA but we got tired of Gloria.haha. so we decided to just sing. After a while, we got tired of singing so we played “hephep hooray” that was so fun but then so exhausting for our host.haha.. we played another game. “back the message” one of our favorite,hahaha. Our team won..yey!haha. I think I went home at almost 8pm.. I’m not really sure about it. One great day! I miss them a lot and we only see each other so seldom.
--new found friends
It’s almost a month since my first day in college and I have found new friends but still I want to get close to each person in my section AC2.. but I wasn’t reaching out that well. Hmm. As always, I think I still need time to reach out to everyone. I am really bad in socializing.haha. I really need to take one step at a time. Anyway, so much for that. I would like to thank AC2 for making my first month in college exciting and enjoyable.hahaha.. =D
--…
You are so hard to decipher. Im not sure of how you feel about me. Sorry for not being so close with you, I just don’t know how.
Now playing:
“… I got this so so amazing crazy kind of crush on you, and though I try to forget you doesn’t matter what I do… you’re on my mind all the time, if it’s a crime I cant deny…. its true..coz I got this so so amazing crazy kind of crush on you..crazy…crazy…crush on you..- Jonas Brothers”

what hurts the most.

2009-04-18T08:05:00.000-07:00

hmm..after na mabasa ko ung post ni james at ni marc..nainspire akong gumawa din ng post.hehe..=)

"THE END"
-yan na nga ba ang kahahantungan ng lahat?!(i hope not.)

In 4 years of stay in Mand. Sci..marami akong natutunan hindi lang sa academics kundi pati sa life.

dati akala ko..2nd year was the best year ever. pero sabi nga nila mahirap magsalita ng tapos.

and there was a time during 2nd year summer break, the time that i was informed that i will be in section A, i was actually so scared. maybe because of the expression of people about being in section A.

3rd year,..first week..was kinda hard..thank God im with my closest friend and not alone. i know and i can feel that there were walls..there are some point that i cannot relate to them and maybe vice versa.

but after a few months, i can say some of them was ok. very kind and friendly. maybe the impressions were not applicable to all of them at all.

i can still remember the happy moments we shared..
-volleyball times.
-jamming moments.
-presentations and project.
-the last bonding during third year.(with the face paint and everything.)

i think we had influenced them even a bit.(bigger influence was actually joyce and melo.)

and as that year ended not all of us were really friends. it's still just classmates at that time.

4th year,..we started the year still with walls around. and its not between solid A and B..its now between friends and groups..

conflicts..open forum..we had a lot.

but one thursday of november, we had our last open forum.
started with the topic about the problems in our xmas concert. and suddenly all issues were opened. (which is actually good cause that day all conflicts were forgotten and we had forgiven each other.) we hugged each other. SORRY and THANK YOU..were the words. we left the room as one section. as we say that day.."one smell, one section" but of course we are just kidding.hehe..

as days goes by, we encountered more problems and challenges that made our bond stronger.

this last few months, i remembered, everytime i asked permission to my parents, i would always say.."last na naman to eh..gagraduate na kame".

and every time, i can hear myself always says the word "LAST".

but deep inside me i hope that it will never be the last, that there will never be a last.

"What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away"

as we enter COLLEGE. we can never prevent changes.
we might find another bunch of friends.
and worst will prioritize them more than the friends we have now.
but what can we do? we can never control each other.

i hope there will still be a force that will bring us together. it might not be all us but some who did treasure this all.
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another realization, i am fated to be in section A, now I'm part of it. I understand how they feel every time other sections misinterpret them.

goodluck for all of us.

there will never be a goodbye because we will see each other everytime.

the PRESIDENT's BIRTHDAY!

2009-04-07T05:39:00.000-07:00

as promised..

MARCH 31, 2009

so excited to go to school because Angelo planned a surprise for james that no one will greet him..so when i arrive i did not greet him a happy birthday! but after angelo informed me that everyone already great him so i also great him a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and shared about the surprise thing..

went to school for the BACCALAUREATE MASS!
but i was so disappointed that it was not that holy..(for me.)

okay! change topic.
him
everyone is busy of their clearances to be signed.
and i am one of them, but someone approached me and told me that mrs. lacson was looking for me because i nid to pass the slideshow for the graduation unluckily i left it at home and totally forgot about it actually.

i ask my father to bring my usb to school.

then we also need a cd copy of it so we ended up asking a favor from a 3rd year student..luckily she is kind (but not some of her classmates) then..

after that..

its time.

for JAMES bday celebration/blowout!

we went to KFC shaw.(the same place where camae had her despedida blowout.)

in the trike i was with...(ohh!no..i forgot..is this a sign of ALZEIMERS?!Pls. NO!!!)
anyway,..we are kinda having a race with the other trike and the other trike had an accident and we were all joking about it that its because of sukob since they wore their togas before graduation..

we were in the place..upstairs the food was already waiting for us.haha
we took our seat then the others arrived..Angelo had a surprise cake for James..ahh!!it was so touching.haha..=)

then everyone started eating..it was so much a heavy meal to make our stomach full.
beside me were Melo and Ferdyn..and in front of me were JOyce, Diana and Rose.

after eating we went downstairs since there will be a party upstairs at 3pm..

so there i had a bonding with joyce and melo..which i really missed..
then we decided to give the boxes of letters to everyone..

and they started reading each!it was a moment of kinda silence but not so.haha

since i was not yet done with my letters.
and Melo, Joyce and James too..

we just talk about on what kind of strategies we will do for the letters..

after a while..

we left KFC and proceeded to a park outside it..

after a while the others left..and others..

our famous gera patayan..which i will miss for sure.

some of them got injured literally...haha.

but i think most of them enjoyed.

being one of the audience i really enjoyed the show..made my tummy ache..bec. i can't stop laughing.

so most of them are tired so they rest already then shared some stories..

unluckily i needed to go home early.

so i already left the place.

soon..

2009-04-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

JAMES BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!
GRADUATION DAY!
ANGELO's BLOWOUT DAY!

..i just want this BLOG to be filled with memories.
so that when i get older,haha. i have something to read and to reminisce.haha.share

i would like to apologize for the typos and wrong grammars,...cause im not that good in english!.hehe..=)

i'll try to insert pictures and videos next tym.

Graduation Ball (late post).haha

2009-04-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

Graduation Ball..

.,.Teatrino, Promenade.
.,.5:30pm - 12:00am

After waiting for kinda so long.

Joyce and Melo ( i think.) decided to go inside since they are already allowing us to..
I entered the venue with my two escorts Angelo and James. Inside, our food was already waiting it was a buffet style, but we decided to get a place first,..so we went upstairs and leave our belongings there and get some food down.

THE MENU:

`potato salad. (James', Annlo's, Joyce's and Melo's favorite.haha)
`rice.
`pasta.
`a dish. (i don't know what it's called but its pork)
`chicken that is wrapped in a pandan leaf.
`leche flan with cherry on top.

after eating..we took lot of pictures but unfortunately my camera doesn't have a flash so it's not applicable in dark areas.haha..after eating we all went down. The program started. and after the awarding the party started.

We are all waiting for OUR song..in the AYER! and luckily after a while it was played and all of us were actively dancing and singing and being wild. after the song i got so exhausted,..so i sat down and try to take pictures of A'er using Cheska's camera!..

The loveteam of the night..(because they danced so long together all night)

`JAMES and CHESKA
`DAN and EKA
`JAKE and LOANN
`RC and ADRIAN

and many more i think.

i had some slow dance with some people. (actually, with a modern and old songs.)

first was i think PAOLO, i don't know the title of the song but it was kinda fast.
second was ANGELO, and the song was APOLOGIZE, so we danced it slowly?!haha.
third was JAMES, also, i don't know the title of the song but it was slow and kinda old.
and my last dance was JELLAH..haha..

(so thanks to you four.haha..)

and after that BEBE decided to go to STARBUCKS but since all starbucks near our vicinity were closed we ended up going to MCDO, and they ended up having an overnyt and since my parents don't allow me in sleeping in other house i ended up going home.haha

and when we arrived at home.

BAD NEWS ALERT:
My parents read all the letters for almeda, so all my secrets were revealed. I think? since they read my letter to eka.

David Archuleta- CRUSH

2009-03-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

tagged by CHESKA MAGCALENG
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1. Put your iPod (or MP3 player, iTunes, etc.) on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing the note as well as the person you got the note from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Edwin Mccain - COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE
“…i found all im waiting for and i could not ask for more…”

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Eraserheads - HUWAG KANG MATAKOT
"... Huwag kang matakot di mo ba alam nandito lang ako sa iyong tabi, Di kita pababayaan kailan man..."

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A BOY?
Gary Valenciano - Warrior is a child
"…people say that im amazing im strong beyond my years...but deep inside this armor a warrior is a child…”

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Eraserheads - WITH A SMILE
"... Lift your head, baby, don't be scared, Of the things that could go wrong along the way..."

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Jonas brothers - BURNING UP
"...I'm hot..." (haha..walang kontra pls.haha)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Jacob - NAGHIHINTAY (huh?!haha)
"...Naghihintay, kahit parang walang pag - asa..."

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
98 degrees - I DO
"..'til that day i found you, How you opened my life, To a new paradise..."

WHAT IS 2+2?
Martina Mcbride - MY VALENTINE
"... If there were no words, No way to speak..."

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Jonas Brothers - CRAZY KINDA CRUSH ON YOU (what?!)
"... it's a crime, I can't deny it's true, Cause I got this awesome, Amazing crazy kinda crush on you..."

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
A1 - FIXING BROKEN HEART
"... There must be a plan that led me to you, Because the hurt just disappears, In every moment that you are near..."

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Switchfoot - ONLY HOPE
"… It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again..."

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
lmnt - JULIET
“…Gimme just a little bit of hope, With a smile or a glance, gimme one more chance..."

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hey Monday - Homecoming
"..I missed it all, I messed you up,I missed you,I'm coming home.."

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? (what a song!)
Boys Like Girls - Hero (heroin)
"...I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes, This is how I feel, And it's so surreal..."

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (nyah! ang alive naman ng pang funeral ko!haha)
Jason Mraz - IM YOURS
"… Well you done done me and you bet I felt it..."

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
New found Glory - I DONT WANNA MISS A THING
"...I could stay awake just to hear you breathing, Watch you smile while you are sleeping, While you're far away dreaming..."

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Chris Brown - SUPERHUMAN
"...I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me, A superhuman heart beats in me..."

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Bad English - WHEN I SEE YOUR SMILE
"...Sometimes i wonder,If i'd ever make it through, Through this world without having you.."

WHAT IS WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Jonas Brothers - ONE DAY AT A TIME
"... well, i think that im just going crazy one day at a time..."

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Yiruma - MAYBE (its a piano piece.)
"..."

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Jonas Brothers - SORRY
"...I'm Sorry for breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep..."

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? (nakakatawa talaga to?!haha)
Fall out boy - THE TAKE OVER, THE BREAKS OVER
"… I'm boring to overcompensate with Headlines and flash, flash, flash, photography..."

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Jenny Hyun - STILL BELIEVE IN LOVE
"...But like the wind you said goodye, And left me alone here to cry, We shouldn't have gone our separate ways..."

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Jordan Sparks - ONE STEP AT A TIME
"...One step at a time, There's no need to rush..."

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
David Archuleta - YOU CAN
"...Tell me I'm not on my own, Tell me I won't be alone..."

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Marie Digby - GIRLFRIEND
"...Cherish me, sing to me, love me... but... I can't belong to anybody else right now..."

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Kim possible - COULD IT BE
"I Know we've been friends forever, But now I think I'm feeling something totally new..."

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Ramiele Malubay - ALONE
"…Till now I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you?..."

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
David Archuleta - CRUSH
"…Something happened for the first time..."
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whatever begins also ends.

2009-03-22T05:36:00.000-07:00

..March 21, 2009!
the day all B.A.'s were waiting for.

i just wanted to share my experiences.=)

i woke up at almost 4am..
to continue editing the slideshow i made to show 4aver.
i thought i can finish it easily but because my laptop continues on hanging i finished it at almost 8am..

..ann lo and i had an agreement of meeting each other in mcdo at exactly 9:30..so i hurriedly eat then take a bath..before taking a bath i started converting the slideshow into a .wma file..after i took my bath and got dressed the file wasn't finished converting yet..and it was already 9:40..i decided to just bring my laptop..

i arrived at mcdo at almost 10..annlo thought that i wasn't coming since the day before that..i told them i was not permissed by my father to go to the event because i always go home so late..(his line was "sorry ka..sayang lang yang mga pinagpaguran mo dahil hindi kita pinapayagan sa event na yan)..(so actually the acting thing was kinda true.hehe)..then going back to mcdo. we ask a favor from one of the crew in mcdo to give the tshirts and the letter to 4a at 1pm. after that annlo stayed at 7/11 since she is waiting for the other hosts.

then i went to savio to start helping other B.A.'s preparing the place..(acually our meeting time was 7am..) i arrived at the place at 11:30 and the place was kinda decorated with yellow crepe paper by amiel, chesca, mariel, james and daniel. when i arrived james left to go to 7/11 since he is one of the host,i started cutting the black crepe paper i bought for decoration also at the same time trying to convert again the slideshow bec. unfortunately it was not converted properly. then after cheska and i left the others to buy some food.. we bought some snacks and munchkins and hotdog..then we went back..left the snacks in the place then mother and i went to daniel's house to start frying the hotdogs.

when we arrived at daniel's house tita cel invited us to eat first, so i called dan to tell them to go to his house first and eat.. when they arrive daniel start panicking because we don't have a cd for the "play me" video..which is the most important one. so eka and i decided to go out to look for a cd. unfortunately we have not found one..and because it was so hot and i was so hungry instead of going to MP we ust go back to daniel's house. then i started eating since eka and joyce already ate at home they were the ones went to MP and bought CD's and stuff.

when they came back we started burning fortunately we already burned the play me..but unfortunately the countdown was not burning.?! cheska already went home to go to mcdo....after that eka and mariel also went to mcdo.. then joyce, melo and jellah decided to go to mcdo also because it will be so obvious if we will all be together.

but then, i ask jellah to stay for a while and wait for me.. because i realize i will be left alone.

so after..i think 10 mins. jellah and i decided to go to mcdo and leave all the things to daniel. (that's why he didnt go to mcdo)..

we rode a jeepney, and while in it..jellah and i were practicing what to do or to alibi to them since we really never come late..especially jellah!

we arrived at our destination mcdo barrangka..and as i enter mcdo i started with the drama!haha..so embarrasing...

some comforted me..while in my head i was being guilty of what im doing. after that we went to the said destination of our party..(okay!back to savio.)

when we arrived at the place..daniel was the blame or pointed as B.A..
since he really cant act well..(as they said)

....FAST FORWARD....

we are already in the marble room..they were amazed i think?!
the jig saw was played already but i think not all of them really understand what it said..but i proved that my classmates are so intelligent that they answered the clues so fast..so going back..we had technical difficulties..the countdown wont play so the class decided to ask angelo to go home and bring his laptop..

...FAST FORWARD again...

the hosts started the program we had a game..i think its called truth and lie..(which was made by annlo)...then we ate already then..while eating..eka and i went back to dan's house since the presentation i've made was not yet burned in a cd.

we went back to the place,,they were already playing the next game..we will guess who B.A. is..

the countdown was fast approaching..until it reach the 5 mins. left!
we are all excited.. its like 5 mins is so long..

then there...10..9..8...7...6......1
haha..

the video already played and one by one they recognized that there are a lot of B.A.
after the video we started with our presentation..

..TASHA ANN L. EVANGELISTA! GUILTY!
then..

Be firm . Be Strong. Be A. Be an AYER!
(which was accidentally made by Amiel)

then after that we explained it all.
then showed them the slideshows.

the most touching part was when everyone was already hugging each other.
for me.

it was when john hugged me so tight.
it was so touching and all.

for me all our hardworks were worth it.

THE END

MIXED EMOTIONS

2009-02-23T23:43:00.000-08:00

...
This post was written at the back of an empty chemistry notebook while listening to MUSIC from a friend's IPOD at exactly 1:16 in the afternoon.. UNFAIR..it is! being so affected by the actions of "father mother beginning dodge past run or secret admirer". Hate the part that always care what others says. why can't ignore those?!

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The bridge was broken, so hard to go to the other part of the bridge. The other part was painted red.

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Can't they both stay happy??? Being happy makes the other looks sad. The other wanted to be happy seeing the other happy but hurt makes the situation complicated.

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Almost a month to go makes the heart wanted to do things but still there are forces acting upon. Wanted to talk to...but can't knowing that it might not help the situation. will it make it worst or what?!

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so boring today. expecting much lead to much disappointments.

=)

is this goodbye?!

2009-02-23T23:36:00.000-08:00

In the years to come will you think about these moments that we shared...

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to...

Sometimes GOODBYE, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'CAUSE true friendship never dies

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4 years that we shared a lot..

HAPPINESS.
BITTERNESS.
LAUGHTER.
TEARS.
and
....food.

hehe..=)

a destiny that we cant change.
a fate that we should accept.

HAPPY ENDING

2009-02-07T21:28:00.000-08:00

"started with a two days depression."

i can't take it anymore i need to get this out of my system or else i'll die of depression...=,(

FEBRUARY 5, 2009

i broke my promise..

I hyperventilated.

i can't hold on anymore..

after that..

we went to a house..empty house we thought..

but the owner of the house was there.

................................................................................

after a while we still continued with our agenda..

TALK...
TALK...
TALK...

after all of the talking...

REALIZATION:

--should learn "EYE-TO-EYE contact".
--should express self more.
--should not think against others.
--should not be TH..(tamang hinala and not trying hard).
--should think before doing or saying something.

..i hope this will be the end of misunderstandings..

PAST is PAST..

2009-02-07T00:39:00.000-08:00

'..There is no chance of getting back to where we used to be...:(

for one simple but hurting reason..

because..

PAST IS PAST!

so sad that we can't be the clOsest friends again..

there are new things and people
that became part of our lives that we can never let go..

but guess what!..

although we can NEVER go back to where we used to be..

we can still START SOMETHING NEW..

...i hope you're still there for me...

waahh..

2009-01-30T23:21:00.000-08:00

hmm..

it was so unfortunate that i accidentally erased all my post.

so im going to fill this blog with new post again..

sadly we don't have net at home so i think it will take 10 years to reconstruct this blog again.

ahh..=(